As some of you may have noticed, my posts are few are far between these days. We are going through a rough period, with some adjustments in the house, and my computer time has been cut drastically. We are having behavior issues, sleep issues, and just regular day-to-day craziness. I was trying so hard to hold it all together and still have “me” time, but that simply is not working. I may want more time to write, read, and participate in other events; however what I need is to sleep and be healthy for my family. I have a list of things I want, but they will never compare to the list of what We need. So for now, my writing (as well as other things) is taking a back-seat to other more important things. I will post when I can, but feel the need to alleviate some pressure. Two of the most important tools my program has taught me to evaluate my chaos with are: “How Important Is It?” and “Keep It Simple.” After much prayer, several talks with my sponsor, and working my program, I have decided most of what was causing my stress and depression were simply not that important, and so we are going back-to-basics and keeping life simple for the time being.
Being a parent is not an easy job, but it is the most rewarding venture of Our life. We are not perfect, We are Human. I celebrate our Progress, and pray that We can get back on track with Our journey. Right now We are taking the scenic route through some rocky terrain, but soon we will be back on the Au-Some path of discovery with a renewed sense of how truly blessed we are. The most important thing I need to remember is that I am not God, nor do I want to be, and therefore I will make mistakes, but that is okay. I cannot help but feel that having a Special Needs child pushes us further toward the illusion of Control, so that we may aide and protect them in this world. However sometimes we just have to do the best we can and let God handle the rest. So I am turning it over and praying for guidance. I know our Faith, Love and Hope will see us through and our girls will be the stronger for it. So I will be around when I can, but for the time being, I will simply be a mom, wife and thankful servant to my Lord and my Family.
I leave you with a humorous letter, from a former Queen of FMC (Fix, Manage & Control); which was adapted from http://www.al-anon12.org/newslettersep.pdf
This letter is to inform you that, effective immediately, I resign my position as Saint. I find I am lacking the necessary qualities and skills for the job. I had deep concerns about my ability to perform the required duties, but was afraid to say, “No” to a glamorous, powerful position. In addition, the long hours are getting to me.
I also withdraw my request to train for your role as General Manager of the Universe. My skill set does not match the job duties. In addition, Celestial Resources does not expect your position to be open soon.
At this time, I humbly apply for the position of Human. I understand there are many openings and that a spot has already been created for me. I am ready to step into the position immediately. Should you need references, I can provide an extensive list of persons who can attest to my ability to be Human.
I look forward to continuing to work with you.
Autism Proud – Journey With Us – by Jest Tu Positive by Dorothy Stronglove is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.